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I feel so loved. Being stalked and all by little 13 year olds. :3

Anyway, apparently I have to hide on the interent? The fuck is with that? X3 And she deleted me too, lol. I dun care if you're reading this or not. You're probably gonna go off and tell people (specific people... XD) about it too. I lost faith in Mabinogi. Eh.. that happened a long time ago.

Had to get my feelings out, since apparently I'm not allowed to do that publicly anymore :3

Bye Bye, and thanks Kawa. And to anyone else she's telling to read this...

These poems were written by finalmage (nemo) for me. <3 They get progressively better and more personal.

When I first saw you I had to stop
Your so beautiful I nearly dropped
I stared at your eyes as it captivated me
From that point on I knew we were meant to be
I had a plan I have to get my game on
I wanted to be your lover your man so I put my aim on
I hesitated but after we spoke
I knew I had to go for it because you had it going on
Your like my cherry on my favorite Sunday
Your image on my mind continuously Monday through Sunday
Your one in a million and you and I fit together like Legos
And I really love you that's why I can't let go
:3


She Logs in,
My heart - It races,
Do I love you?
Yes I do
Internally, I debate.. Is this real?
Crazy is what I am
Happy and Dazed too.
You Make me smile
You make me happy.
You are my blissful drug.
Great is the distance,
But strong is the bond
I'm tempted to rip my heart out.
Without you,
My mind wanders
To be without you, Is that possible?
Dizzy Daydreams
Bliss.
I don't dream of you.
Because you came true
The moment you entered my life.
I long to make you happy
You Say I already have.
Wonderful this is true!
Sleep...
If it were not necessary
You.. would have my every moment
My blissful drug...
I'm forever addicted.
:3


A poem by: nemo
Nothing can stop me loving you
For I love you too much.
I love everything about you
But you I cannot touch
I adore you.
You are out of this world.
I wish you was my baby
And I was your pearl.
I may hurt you and break you.
I am not worthy of your heart.
I may steal it and take away your sanity.
I will tear you apart
I am such a loser when it comes to love.
I'll fail with my everything, my life.
But I love you this much is true.
I broke myself
I don't want to break you.
I couldn't live with that.
I love you.
Do you think I could be capable of doing something so horrid?
I wouldn't, I couldn't but I will.
Although I'd do anything for you
And you are my pill.
I promise not to hurt you.
I cannot do that to the person I love.
You are my angel, my savior
And my god; sent from up above.
:3

I absolutely love this song. It's the feeling of relief after having a burden lifted. The feeling of suddenly being allowed to be carefree. What I label to be my mood can't describe the song. It holds no special meaning, and yet it holds so many emotions within it. Reminds me of the happy things hidden behind the worry, doubt, and stress. At night time, this song feels like a warm, sunny day. It isn't love, but such a peaceful feeling... it's good enough for me.

Listening to Ryan Conferido play the piano on youtube... it's love! I fell in love with his music. I lied there on the floor and it felt like I had a hole in my chest. It felt like, at any moment anyone could just reach in and hold my heart. It was this strange feeling. I felt altogether calmed, relaxed, and distant, yet alive and hopeful. Or rather, all those feelings combined to make this emotionless feeling. Like being made a new, in a sense.

Haha. Too beautiful is the sound of the piano. Emotional when played by someone whose feelings are poured into it. Hearing it again was like rekindling a love.